How funny it is after all these years to leave the light on when I go to bed, but you know the urge is compelling and I am going to follow it for the time being. The gut never lies.
I have lived next door to my parents for many years. In reality, they live next to me... I was here first and their home has been on my 3.69 acres, alongside my house for over 2o years... (and by a safe, private distance.. have you read my other blog?? Dating and the Middle Aged Woman?) ... And, how odd it is to think/to know! I own 3.69 acres and a good sized home. And it is mine.. Lord knows it's been tough to hold onto, but can I just say wow?!
And, slow down there.. owning this has nothing to do with my dating adventures. Those stories might give a glimpse of my dad though.. he doesn't know details, but he knows his daughter has learned to turn single-hood into a barrel of fun, if not great story. We live sunny-side up around here. And I have been turning the light out for years.
Turning the light off means I am home safe should he awaken during the night. You know, you can never break dads of that habit.. I know. I've been working on him for years. And I know how to do that - change people's habits; but my dad? This? Never. I turn that light off, I don't care whose property it is, or how many years you spend living thousands or miles apart - your dad is your dad. You don't fight the small stuff.
But here I am, tonight. I am leaving a light on. To honor my mother, and to show him the way to me, should he awaken frightened. I love that man. And that man, loved my mother.
I may not be a Motel 6, but I can leave a light on.
I have lived next door to my parents for many years. In reality, they live next to me... I was here first and their home has been on my 3.69 acres, alongside my house for over 2o years... (and by a safe, private distance.. have you read my other blog?? Dating and the Middle Aged Woman?) ... And, how odd it is to think/to know! I own 3.69 acres and a good sized home. And it is mine.. Lord knows it's been tough to hold onto, but can I just say wow?! And, slow down there.. owning this has nothing to do with my dating adventures. Those stories might give a glimpse of my dad though.. he doesn't know details, but he knows his daughter has learned to turn single-hood into a barrel of fun, if not great story. We live sunny-side up around here. And I have been turning the light out for years.
Turning the light off means I am home safe should he awaken during the night. You know, you can never break dads of that habit.. I know. I've been working on him for years. And I know how to do that - change people's habits; but my dad? This? Never. I turn that light off, I don't care whose property it is, or how many years you spend living thousands or miles apart - your dad is your dad. You don't fight the small stuff.
But here I am, tonight. I am leaving a light on. To honor my mother, and to show him the way to me, should he awaken frightened. I love that man. And that man, loved my mother.
I may not be a Motel 6, but I can leave a light on.
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